Dorcus Gillaspie Program

Dorcus (Big Sis), I want to Thank God for allowing us to spend our time together as brother and sister. I also want to Thank you for loving me unconditionally. It is very hard writing this letter to you. I wasn't ready for your departure, but our God had other plans for you. I will miss you, your big personality, your selflessness, your true love for us (Ashley, Jerri, My family, & Myself). I will always remember you telling me that I always had a teddy bear in place of me for Christmas and that hopefully one day we would finally meet. And guess what, that wish came true. Can you believe that Myspace brought us together, Myspace LOL!!!! I'll never forget that moment when I was able to tell my mother I finally was able to talk to you and Ashley for the first time. My life changed forever!!! As I close out my letter, just know this one thing. I'll always love you and keep your name alive. Thank you again for being you. I love you, From your little brother Jerry Wayne Gillaspie, J.R. My Heart- "I WILL MISS YOU UNTIL THE DAY I TAKE MY LAST BREATH...MY SISTERS KEEPER, You were my heart, my best friend, my protector, my soulmate, my everything. I could not go one day without talking to you or I would lose my mind! I miss you every day, every second, and every minute. I miss your laugh, your smile, and our petty fights. But most of all I miss driving to your house on my bad days... I would climb in bed with you and lay on your chest and you would smile and say, "you're not a little girl anymore but you are still my baby". You would kiss my forehead and allow me to lay there for hours if I wanted to and the pain would go away. Growing up you were more like my mom than my sister...when I was afraid of the dark you would let me climb into your twin-size bed to be close to you but then yell that my stuffed animal (Mr. Koala) had to go. You hated that I was so much younger because I always wanted to play house and you always had to be the mom that just had a baby so that you could take long naps, I would get so mad because you would sleep for 2-3 hours, and I would run and tell momma that you weren't playing fair! She always got you back because you had to take me wherever you went lol. You used to get so mad that I had to tag alone but your friends loved it! I guess my charming cheeks and smile worked every time. I wanted to be just like you because I thought you were cool, smart, and had a lot of friends. I followed your footsteps when I decided to graduate from TWU and pursue my career path with WIC and we became the "Gillaspie Sisters". Not being able to call you on the phone every morning has been the hardest part...I miss hearing you say, "Hey sis, or Phats what do you want now?". When I first brought you home from rehab, I remember telling you that I needed a 30-day break from you and Harlem...and I did not even make it one day because I was calling you saying, "Let's go to Ross!" Sister Sunday will never be the same...but I will continue to cherish the ones we had. I love you sissy...more than all the words in the world. For my 2, No one will ever be able to top the things you did for me. You're my favorite person. A lot of my good memories are because of you. I could never stay mad at you. You never judged me for anything I did. I'll always appreciate everything you did for me because even when you struggled, you made sure I was taken care of. A lot of what I wanted was provided by you. I'll miss you greatly. Miss your humor, your smile, your attitude, your confidence, and your love. Stay by my side and be my guardian angel. -I love you sissy, Jerri A phenomenal woman is what you are. Words cannot explain the love I have for my big cousin she was more like my big sister Dee. You have seen me at my lowest and never turned your back on me. You have watched me grow from a child to a man and you are the reason why I am the man I am today. From helping me with homework to teaching me how to cook, I am truly grateful. God knew what he was doing when he created you. You have left a mark on this earth. Sis, you have done your job. -I love you sis! Mookie! My Dee, This is not easy for me to write this to you because my heart is so heavy as I process all of what God has placed before me to accept. I want to say thank you, sis, for showing me what love, for your guidance, sisterly wisdom, and unconditional love, which was critical components, that shaped and groomed me into the woman that I am today. I understand that God has specially placed you in His Kingdom because he saw that your job was done during this short time you had here on earth. In spite of my mourning for the loss of you physically, I am so elated for you spiritually because you accomplished so much while here in this life. Sis, you are so deserving to be in God's Kingdom because you are the embodiment of love. Your spirit will live with us each day and I look forward to your spiritual guidance as I continue to navigate my way through this life. I remember when I though Bali's birth was an early birthday gift from me to you, but now in hindsight, I realize this birth was a gift from you to me to cherish and keep your memory alive. I feel you already know that Bali will grow up to know how amazing his Aunt Dee was to us all. I truly value the legacy you left behind for us to carry on in your name and will dedicate the rest of my life honoring you. Rest in Paradise Sis. Love you immeasurably, -LaQue -Love- Your other half (Phats)